Never Want This To Happen

I have a fear.



I fear that if one chilly night, while I am half asleep, I hear footsteps outside or in the upper living room. I fear that I will hear objects knocking each other, glass shattering on the floor & perhaps even hear ghostly-like whispers between two to five mysterious figures. I fear that out of curiousity, my body leaps up from bed, from my beauty sleep and turn on the lights just in case everything was just my imagination.



I fear that if it is not my imagination, I start hearing continuous knocks. Knocks on doors. Knocks on MY door. I fear that since the knocking does not stop, my tummy twists & I hold on to dear life as I open the door. I fear that when the door is slightly ajar, I catch a glimpse of masked men with knives. I fear that with that, they grab me by the shoulders, cover my mouth as I scream the hell out of myself & knock me with something hard, perhaps until I pass out.



I fear that when I open my eyes, I see my other family members on the opposite of myself, tied up together while I am tied up alone. I fear that when that happens, the burglars use me as a hostage, blackmailing mama & dad into giving them every nickle & dime we have in the bank. I fear that if my siblings/mama/dad tries to fight back & then they end up getting beaten.



I fear that when the theives are satisfisfied with what they have accomplished, they decide to take away someone's life. I fear that if they ever think of doing such a inhuman crime, they start beating up one of us & the others can do nothing but scream for help (useless) & cry the crap out of ourselves, still tied. I fear that when all of that is over, the dumb ass masked men leave with a smirk on their faces & a tone of satisfaction in their voice.



I fear that when they leave & run for their fucking life, I find myself looking at a corpse. Or better yet, BE the corpse.



- Every night, some nights my mind takes over & forces me to imagine of things such as these; while I shiver uncontrolably, horribly frightened. I hope this will never, EVER happen.