The Horror

Imagine loosing someone you really love. Your parents...... your siblings..... your bestfriends..... Oh the horror. I would do anything to avoid this from happening. Stop complaining & appreciate. Appreciate everything you have while they are still there. You will regret when it is too late...

I get too carried away sometimes. But no matter what, it narrows down to those times when I stop & think about everything. E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G. I feel like cuddling a person, crying in their arms, wishing it would stop this terrible feeling, I know it wouldn't. Ustaz's words are playing in my mind. Though it is not the way to solve it, I keep on crying. And even harder.

Like I said, I have done countless sins. And I am trying to be a better person. I am. It is not as easy as it sounds. I want to escape from this terrible misery. Avoid all the phantom. Get away from this horror reality, where bad things happen frequently.

The world should be free. Free of misery. Free of pollutions. Free of abuse cases. Free of murders. Free of abductions. Free of everything. Everything bad, that is. Life would be so peaceful without these horrors. I hope one day, the Earth will stop pollut- I mean WE stop polluting Earth. WE stop doing horrid crimes. WE make the world better. I hope.

My mind travels on it's own. Through dark thoughts.. *shivers* I hate to imagine horrible things that could possibly happen. But I can never help myself. Imagine if your parents are gone.. for good. Imagine if one of your bestfriend is gone, forever. Imagine if....... I always end up crying when I think of these things. I never want them to come true. Never. Alright, enough imagining. Enough with the tragic thoughts. Calm down, self.